I was going to do it too!! -- Boy Talk

[xxnefariousxx]

Don't you just love boys...? I know I don't. u.u

Here's the story with my guy...

Those of you who know me, know that I was having some guy problems earlier in the year. I was going to tell him I liked him and ask him to my Prom and etc. Well - I did half of that. I took him to prom with me, but I never told him I liked him.

Now, we dated before. It wasn't anything big, but I feel that we never really had our "chance" at having a relationship, y'know?

So recently, we've been hanging out a lot... A LOT!!

We saw a movie Wednesday (just as friends). Then we hung out at his house afterwards. We were at the park right by his house, swinging, playing tag and doing fun stuff. It felt so natural and fun. Yet the whole time we were hanging out, it sounded like he wanted to ask me something. He kept going:

"I - uh - oo - ie - What was I going to say...? Erm, uh etc. etc."

So then he finally asked me in a quiet voice: "When are you available next?"

I said this weekend and he said: "We should definitely get together and watch Carnival." << Last year's Musical that we were in.

I said okay.

Saturday, we were both at a party. And... I dunno. He and I were around each other a lot of the night. There was some heavy "partying" and I just felt very safe by him. We were in the kitchen of our friend's house and he had hid my purse from these "partyers". He was whiny asking me why I had to go... And I had to go because I had curfew and blah blah. He propped himself up on the countertop - and I wanted to tell him right then and there that I liked him... I really like him: he's my best friend, and I like him - a lot! But I chickened out... He pulled me into this big bear-hug. I said if he wasn't working tomorrow that he should come over to watch Indi films with me. He agreed - and then told me to call him when I got home to make sure I was home safe (that made me feel so giddy).

When I got home, I called him.

Me: "Gimme a call tomorrow if you still want to hang out."
Him: "Definitely!"
Me: "All righty - I'm going to go then."
Him: "All right - sweet dreams, Rachel."
Me: "You too - night."

He's never said that to me before... ever... At least I can't recall...

Today he calls:

Him: "Rachel! It's a beautiful day - want to go to the beach?"

I couldn't - I had a grad party and a music lesson to give. So I told him I'd call him when I was done.

As I was at my grad party, I was telling my friend I was going to do it - when Joe came over tonight, I was going to tell him that I liked him... I mean, it just felt so right...

He came over tonight, we watched our Indie film - but he was sooo tired! So he didn't watch it, and slept. Then his mom calls saying his basement is flooded and he needs to get home. It was early in the night too - we were bummed. We hugged goodnight - but there was no opportunity to tell him! I was going to do it after the movie - but we never finished it, because he had to get home!! xS Erg!!

Before he left, he was saying how our friend Sam wants to go see a movie with his friend Jon - and how Sam wants Joe and I to go... Together? I'm not sure...

Does it sound like he likes me or am I just taking things literally?
Am I right for wanting to tell him?

Erg!!! I was going to tell him to!! I was so going to do it!!


I just needed a rant... 9.9

[QuackAttack]

Yeah, it definitely sounds like he likes you and I think you should tell him when you hang out again (alone) and it's a good moment. Just curious, when you dated before how long did it last and why didn't it work out?

[xxnefariousxx]

Okay, here's the history with Joe and moi:

Joe and I dated for almost five months - it was on a choir tour that we broke up (mutually), because the truth was he was leaving for college. At this time, he was planning on attending a college down in New Orleans - but the money was outrageous and he couldn't afford it. So then he decided to go to this little private college in Chicago. He received a whole bunch of grants, federal aids and was going off of some scholarships. But I guess something happened at his college and he could no longer afford the rest of the year. So he only went for one semester then returned home. So he's been back home ever since January I think. And what's better is he's not going back to his college in Chicago, but is rather going to the U here... Fate...?

Hope that helps, Quack. And thanks for your comment - hearing you agree that it sounds like he likes me, doesn't make me feel so "little girl-ish". x.x I remember in a previous post you telling me to just tell him. Next time I see him and we're alone, I'll probably do it. *deep inhale*

[QuackAttack]

That makes sense. I don't think I could do the whole long distance thing either.

Good luck with everything!

[xxnefariousxx]

Thanks Quack! I'm keeping my fingers crossed. n.n