sister problems + guy problems ._.

[Luna]

okay. so I have 2 sisters right? well im the youngest. i bet a lot of you here are the youngest, so you know how it feels. so yeah, i got a gecko. my sister , meghan, 19 years old (almost 20. 1 month) has her best friend kristy over who graduated with meg then shortly after moved to somewhere in Alberta. We live in BC.

So, I put Akua (my gecko) on my thumb and walk out there. megan is screaming, rachael and her friend wes are just not really saying anything but smiling, and little me comes with my gecko and walks in. im happy, and im excited. -- and akua is harmless! she is perfectly calm and wont jump.

but.. this is what happens
im always excluded from things
i see myself as a crybaby sort of. yeah, i broke my arm and i didint cry, but its just social stuff that makes me cry, not physical. and whenever im sad i get this harsh cold chill from the inside of my body-- not out. and i feel more comfortable explaining this to YOU guys on the forum, more then my retard friends who are now starting to get cheeky and a little mean with me, when im just trying to be myself--- sort of.

so rach and megan and zach (megs friend) all yell at me. they always yell at me.
they always yell.
its always my fault. its just so anoyying. and so she yells at me and i ran in here in my computer room and cried a little while putting my lizard away. anyway, thats sister problems.

well, its not really guy problems. its cause im a major tomboy here so heres my list of friends, 2 categorys. female and male.

[glow=blue,2,300]Male[/glow]
Brenden
ColtonZachary
Deacon
Jaden
BJ (His actual name is Baljord. BAHL-jord)
Jordan (he moved, though.)
Tristan
Kevin
Patrick
Tristan
Alex


[glow=pink,2,300]Female[/glow]
Victoria
Hannah
Yvonnee
Alex
Mackenzie (she has the same name as me)
Gina
Sonya ._.

Thats it. See? Okay. The ones we want to focus on are the 3 bold names. Colton, Brenden, and Hannah. So me and Colton are -cough- were really good friends. I brought Hannah into our little "group". Big mistake. Shes nice and friendly but a few days ago -- heres our conversation just before we left

In the Afternoon during lunch

Me: Hannah, are you free? cause then we could hang out after school.

Hannah: Sure. Im probably free today. Its Friday. I am.

Me: Okay! Sweet.

Near the end of the day--- NEAR COLTON + BRENDEN

Me : So, Hannah. You still free you think?

Hannah(near colton and brenden) : Oh uh.... nope. Im not.

I felt like crying. I was so mad and sad at the same time! And I could tell she was under pressure. Colton and Brenden ive known for a long time. I dont want to lose my friends and have more enemies then friends. Okay. So heres the deal with Brenden.

So I stayed home from school today because im up to my fricken eyes in flem and mucas. Im sneezing, coughing, I had a high fever. I was sleeping and watched teletoon for friggen 4 hours.

After, near around 4:30 I called Brenden.

Heres our conversation.

Me: Hey brenden, You know you can add friends in Our World? (Ourworld is a game we just joined.)

Brenden: Oh .. cool.

blah blah blah 2 minutes about ourworld.. then

Brenden : Mac, why werent you at school today?

Me: Cause I felt like ****.

Brenden : So, my eyes are always itchy and red and sore but then ---

then I interrupted and said

Bye. gotta go. and hung up. What I REALLYYY wanted to say was -- Brenden, the only friggen reason why your eyes are always effing red, is because you itch them and whine. So please, SHUTUP. Stop being whiny and selfish and self-centered.


I cant really say that to him --

1. Hes my friend

2. I have a soft heart

3. Hes sort of poor

4. His mom and dad are prolly gonna get divorced

5. He see's his mom 3 days a week, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday

The rest hes all with his dad.

The deal with Colton ---


Not much, but sometime he treats me like shyt. But overall hes cool.

[Luna]

and I forgot a few on the poll by accident ---

Speak to each of them in private

Speak to all of them in private

[...analu!]

The way i see it, is that if you're not happy around your sister and her friends, don't hang out with them. I mean, you could try talking to her, but i'm not sure that'll help at all. I mean, i have an older sister and a younger one, and with older people, it's just generally harder to get through to them, kinda.

as for the friends, ditch the ones you aren't happy with. i did that, and as much as it kinda hurts at first, it really DOES get better. I mean, i stopped hanging out with a couple of friends, and as much as i miss their company (on their better days) i am a lot happier now without their constant critiques and trash talking about me. I mean, sure, they probably talk bad about me from behind, but it's a lot better than having them ignore me most of the time.

Which brings me to the point that if you're not okay with the way your friends are treating you, there's no point in being their friend, because they obviously don't care about you

[QuackAttack]

I agree with Ana. I can't comment on the sibling thing because I'm an only child.

But as for the friends... I've lost a lot of friends over the years. A LOT. And I'm better off without them now. They made me feel like **** all the time and most of them had a really drastic change in personality around 16 so that they weren't even the people I used to be friends with anymore. So I stopped talking to them and made new friends that don't make me feel that way and that don't feel the need to change their personality.

[Luna]

Thanks guys, I went over to brendens house and a lot of my friends came. We all agreed on the same stuff so I felt good.

[...analu!]

I would say you don't even have to ignore your sister, i mean, if she's over with some friends, say, in the living room, go to your room or to the computer room (idk how your house is, but you get the point) and just avoid the unecessary critisism.

And i'm glad your friends agree with you about Colton, but remember what me and Quackattack said, if things get bad on your end of the friendship, just "take a break"! My school is SUPER little (like, one class of each grade and 20 kids in each class) so i don't have much of an oppertunity to make friends in school, nevermind outside of school. So leaving those friends, i realized that since NOBODY likes them, nobody hangs out with them, which meant that more people started to hang out with me, etc.

It's all a matter of time, and idk, i guess in some cases, even luck!
But i'm glad everything worked out for you!

[Luna]

thanks. hannah is sort of being a bitch right now.and we know its just soccer, but hannah always gets picked for teams and she doesent do ****. we are all ****ed off but it makes me happy they agree with me, too.

[Luna]

btw, megan is a wh0re.

she is the garlic, i am the vampire.

ARGHH i hate her T_T

[Luna]

Okay well things are starting to clear up. Today was the local country fair and basically ALL my friends and people I knew were there. It was a blast.