Post by ...analu! on Jun 12, 2008 23:18:19 GMT
ahah
seriously!
oookay, so idk if i mentioned this before, but i kindasorta like a guy who lives 10 hours from here, i mean 900km! ahahah
well, anyway, we met on orkut (it's a networking site like myspace, only it's what most brasilians use), on a forum for this event that's coming up.
err.. this event is an interact club (international action club, affiliated with rotary international) conference, where it's 4 days of 14-18 year olds to basically hang out and do workshops, etc.etc. and i started talking to this guy, Eduardo through MSN, yaddayadda, and it's been over a 3 weeks now.
He thought i was older, like, 16-17, his age, but when he asked, i told him i was 14, going on 15, and even though i thought he would change when talking to me, he continued being the same way! So i was very satisfied with that, and he has no problem with my age as far as i've noticed.
Okaay, so it doesn't seem like much, but he's SO intelligent in every single aspect of everything, and like, he's good looking from what i've seen, but i'm almost positive he doesn't feel the same way i do.
I mean, sometimes he does sometimes say things like, "Oh, you should come here!" and on the forums he "defends" me sometimes, but sometimes i'm not sure if he's just saying that as a friend or if he really feels kinda the way i do.
I realize online relationships don't work out most of the time, and since he lives SO far away from here, i realize it's probably not even worth it, but who knows what'll happen at this event next month? And i keep thinking, what if he doesn't think of me the same way and i get dissapointed? Or what if he doesn't think i'm pretty enough?
Which brings me to the next part of my "story" which is that today, my friend Ana was over and she turned on the webcam on MSN and stuff, and i was SO embarrassed, like, i didn't even know what my hair looked like and it was hot and i was sweaty, and it wasn't fun! D: so i took forever to get in front of the webcam and i think he might find me super immature or something because of that. because when i'm with my friend Ana, i can't talk to him the same way i do when i'm alone, like, she'll try to say something embarrassing to him and i'll try to make her take it back and you know how friends are when their friends like a guy D:
and i'm scared he was a little "dissapointed" with the way I acted on cam and the way i look. I thought he was really good looking, like, the way i imagined him, actually. But i'm SUPER self-concious, and i'm scared of being embarrassed at this event because generally when i'm friends with somebody online, i get embarrassed when i talk to them face-to-face D:
seriously!
oookay, so idk if i mentioned this before, but i kindasorta like a guy who lives 10 hours from here, i mean 900km! ahahah
well, anyway, we met on orkut (it's a networking site like myspace, only it's what most brasilians use), on a forum for this event that's coming up.
err.. this event is an interact club (international action club, affiliated with rotary international) conference, where it's 4 days of 14-18 year olds to basically hang out and do workshops, etc.etc. and i started talking to this guy, Eduardo through MSN, yaddayadda, and it's been over a 3 weeks now.
He thought i was older, like, 16-17, his age, but when he asked, i told him i was 14, going on 15, and even though i thought he would change when talking to me, he continued being the same way! So i was very satisfied with that, and he has no problem with my age as far as i've noticed.
Okaay, so it doesn't seem like much, but he's SO intelligent in every single aspect of everything, and like, he's good looking from what i've seen, but i'm almost positive he doesn't feel the same way i do.
I mean, sometimes he does sometimes say things like, "Oh, you should come here!" and on the forums he "defends" me sometimes, but sometimes i'm not sure if he's just saying that as a friend or if he really feels kinda the way i do.
I realize online relationships don't work out most of the time, and since he lives SO far away from here, i realize it's probably not even worth it, but who knows what'll happen at this event next month? And i keep thinking, what if he doesn't think of me the same way and i get dissapointed? Or what if he doesn't think i'm pretty enough?
Which brings me to the next part of my "story" which is that today, my friend Ana was over and she turned on the webcam on MSN and stuff, and i was SO embarrassed, like, i didn't even know what my hair looked like and it was hot and i was sweaty, and it wasn't fun! D: so i took forever to get in front of the webcam and i think he might find me super immature or something because of that. because when i'm with my friend Ana, i can't talk to him the same way i do when i'm alone, like, she'll try to say something embarrassing to him and i'll try to make her take it back and you know how friends are when their friends like a guy D:
and i'm scared he was a little "dissapointed" with the way I acted on cam and the way i look. I thought he was really good looking, like, the way i imagined him, actually. But i'm SUPER self-concious, and i'm scared of being embarrassed at this event because generally when i'm friends with somebody online, i get embarrassed when i talk to them face-to-face D:
