A Little Upset

[bordercolliekennel]

Ok, so this might not seem like a big deal to you guys but it is to me.

Ok, so I can't get a boyfriend. I've wanted a boyfriend since like 4th grade and I'm now going to into seventh but no one likes me. In 4th grade I a crush on the kid who was in my 6th grade class and is a total jerk now so I can't belive I ever liked him. My friend asked him if he liked me and he was like no, like he didn't even care about my feelings but I guess guys don't really care how girls feel at that age. Oh and before that this other girl was like back off and I was like yeah right bitch(but I didn't know that word then lol). And now the guy is a total jerk and this year he told his friend that I like asked him out in 4th grade(which I didn't I just asked him if he liked me which I'm not sure if there is a difference but there is for me)and then he started throwing it in my face and I thought that after rejecting me the least the guy could do is keep his mouth shut and not tell anyone.

So I never really talked to my 5th grade crush except in the end of the year at our 5th grade picnic and like 5 days before school ended. We were joking around about somthing stupid like muffins or somthing lol it was werid but like 5 days before school ended and then at the picnic i sat next to him for like 5 mins and then I joked around in the hall way. but I really nervous in 5th grade around guys casue I had like No self confidence.

Then when I got to middle school I thought it would get better and guy would like me more and I would get a really cute boyfriend. Wow I was so wrong. None of the guys in my class were cute. And the one guy that I did like for like the whole year was a weriodo and won't give me a hug and freakin free hug day(don't ask my friend who is really random made it up lol). That made me almost cry. So in like the middle of the year we like tlaked all the time in social studies and he was about to ask me out but then he deicided he like this popular prep better I guess. So I thought he was starting to like me more as the year whent on casue we acutally started having like conversations were we weren't just joking around. The last day of school I asked him for his aim and he started chainging the subject and then later I was liek can I please have your aim and he was like later. Well, later never came so I guess I'm not good enough to even be his friend. I know where he lives(well kinda) and I can walk to his house but if doesn't want to be my firend then I really don't want to be a stalker and I think I should just leave him alone.

Then this other kid in my class started talking to me like on tuesday which is like 2 days before school ended and I was getting really mad casue we were doing this craft thing I could not do it to save my life(it was really funny lol) and then we has sitting in front of me and he was like here lt me do it for you. Then like the next day we were kinda joking around but I don't think he really liked me that much and it doesn't really matter casue I'm probably never going to see him again.

And its not just guys at school that don't like me its guys that me and my friends hang out with too. Like my one friend Micheala(who I totaly just made up with so were like BFFs again Yay!) and her other friends(like usally 3 or 2 guys and 3 girls(including me)) hang out and I can tell none of the guys like me at all. They always go for Micheala or Abbey(the other girl) and none of them ever like me. they like don't really even talk to me that much.

And I was really mad casue I would kinda have a boyfriend right now except the guy didn't like my age. My friend(Nykki my 15 year old BFFL) was texting her friend when she was over my house for a weekend and he was really upset cause his girl friend just broke up with him. So then she was like I don't want you to be sad and he was like me niether and she was like see that makes three people that don;t want you to be sad. SO then he was like whos the third. ANd she was like BFFL Jess. And hes like oh and shes like yeah shes co cool. And he like I wanna see a pic and I was liek no I look like **** today. So then she was like you send us a pic and he did and I was like OMG aww hes so cute. Then she was like he would probably go out with you but I don't hink you would go out with him and I was like yeah I would. And she was like you would go out with someone whos three years older then you and I'm like yeah. So then he kept bugging us for I picture so then we took a pic of both of us and hes like no I want a pic of just her and so then she sent him like a month old pic and shes like heres a pic she looks high in though. And hes like yeah she looks high but shes still cute. And I was like so excited casue thats the first time I guy ever said I was cute. The we called him and she was like how old do you think jess is nad hes like idk our age and we both started laughing and then shes like shes in 6th and he was like oh I g2g. Then she texted him and she was like we all know you really didn't have to go jkjk and hes like yeah I did and then she started asking him what he thought about me and he was like shes too young for me and I was like damn it the one time a guy acutally thinks I'm cute he was to be like 3 years older then me and wants to have a gril friend his age. So now he has a girlfriend and I always joke around with Nykki and I'm like you know we could have gone with the idea that i'm in 9th grade.

And I have been like changing the way I look and like everything about me a lot this year and its only been getting better so idk whats wrong with me that guys don't like me. It just really makes me upset. So sorry that was so long I just wanted to rant a little lol. Any advice, comments, or help please post!!

[QuackAttack]

I didn't get my first boyfriend of my first kiss until I was 16 and not my first serious boyfriend (like more than a month of dating as opposed to the other 2) until I was 17. Sometimes these things just take a while. Don't rush it. It always comes when you're least expecting it and in the weirdest ways. Two words of advice though:
1) Don't try to be someone else. Guys won't want to date someone if that person's trying to fit the image of what they think guys expect them to be. If you be yourself, you'll find someone who likes you for you and not you acting how you think you should act.
2) Don't try to date guys on the rebound (like the guy your friend tried to hook you up with). Rebounders are always vulnerable and lonely and will go out with almost anyone. If you do go out with one, it will not last long at all. Date single guys who haven't been in a relationship for a while. That way, if they like you, you know they like you for you and not just because you're the first girl they come across.

[bordercolliekennel]

Ok, thanks for the advice.

[Rach]

Guys arnt all they're cracked up to be.
You get a relationship and 99% of the time just get hurt in the end.
I wouldn't worry about being desperate for a boy, my best friends has been moaning for about 4 years now that she cant get a boyfriend then tada, she meets this perfect guy and is happier than ever.
Basically, just wait for the right guy and dont use others as substitutes untill then, it'll hurt them and you.

[...analu!]

i've noticed that when you least expect it, you find somebody.
i remember a whiiiiile back (like, 6th grade) everyone was going out with somebody and didn't have a bf.. so i was upset and everything but in the end i realized i was waaay too young to be a serious relationship with anybody, regardless of the guy's age, so i gave up on it.

and when i moved, since i was so focused on the move, i didn't care about guys. a couple months later i find out this guy really liked me and i had no idea! so we went out for a while but things didn't work out in the end

after that, i left things alone, again, i wasn't exactly looking for anybody as much as i was just trying to make friends and fit in, and i started meeting guys.

i think guys have this kind of 6th sense that they can identify girls who want a boyfriend, and they steer away from these girls. then the ones who are preoccupied with something else, they go after.

ahahah
but good luck, and take the advice quackattack gave you, don't date just for the sake of dating, and don't date guys on the rebound. that's never good.

[xxnefariousxx]

Agreed - it'll come when you least expect it. I still consider myself as never having a first "real" boyfriend and I'm 17. I've dated guys - but have never had a boyfriend, really.

I know how you feel - sometimes you just feel lonely and want the company of a man. But enjoy life and don't dread over boys. They're not worth it. You have your whole life to find your perfect soul mate! And it'll be so worth it when you do.

[bordercolliekennel]

Tanks for the adivice everone. Its really helped.